What am I meant to do?

I would think hard of things you like to do. you say you like to do things with your hands, does a florist or a gardner sound appealing to you? what if you work in a craft store, I am not sure what types of stores are crafty in your area. I think, although I do not know you, that a florist position would appeal to you, one you get to create, two you get to work with plants, and three you get paid to get dirty, and you are making something people will pay money for and a good chunk of it too many arrangements go for $40-$100. I was very much like you I tried out different things but nothing really appealed to me, i had many friends who got married and i offered to help go dress shopping, i love helping them get ready for the big day and now am working on being a wedding planner, I found out just one day how much i loved it.so i think if you try you can find your dream job too.